I love beginnings!! Just as much as I detest endings and departures!! Some beginnings have been real remarkable for me. My first job is one of them. It had been about a month that I had come to Pune, with a determination that I wouldn’t go back home until I get a job. I wasn’t too positive about it though. But it didn’t turn out to be as difficult as I’d presumed. Or may be my stars were favoring me too much and I got placed in two companies within a week. No doubt I was elated, thrilled.
Two days later I was holding the offer letter of KPIT Cummins offering me a decent package. I had made my decision. This wasn’t my dream job. But it was a practical choice. ‘You do not work for ‘The Times of India’ after slogging four years for an engineering degree’. Brainwashed!!
It took me a while to realize and imbibe my job profile. Being here, doing this was an entirely weird experience. I found myself making so many blunders. I couldn’t perceive this transformation, from the student to a professional. There were no teachers, but trainers. There were no holidays, only offs. Making mistakes would yield remarks, not corrections. But, of all, the most difficult part for me was to be careful about what you talk to people. And since I’d always been accused for being blunt, I chose to speak less. Initially I felt like this was a real big deal, but later got more careful and cautioned.
Today, I complete a month here. I’ve found a bunch of companions here and have fun with them. I get appreciated when I’m good and criticized when I’m wrong. I’ve learnt to be tolerant and patient, with my work and people around me. I stare less at the clock on my system and time seems to pass soon now (even the odd shift timings). The initial clumsiness and discomfort with my managers and seniors has eased to some extent. But, I’m still searching for friends here. Friends who know the real me and open up to me. I want to be myself. Express myself the way I like. I want to be loved and appreciated for what I am. I want to be inspired and not insipid. I don’t want to be an emotional wreck but I wish I had some light and healthy ambience out here. Then I’d be as cozy as in my den!!
